4:55am this morning my alarm rang out and almost immediately I began chasing my dream. I was not ready to be done with it, to wake from my subconscious, and yet as if beyond my control the hours of sleep faded into the growing light and I wasn’t sure what I was chasing anymore. It was gone. The day was upon me.

I guess I should be grateful this morning for this hour and fifteen minutes during violin lessons to write. I woke with the desire of expression, to give my thoughts a voice. I don’t nearly do it as often as I want to and am saddened by all that I’ve missed in my quiet.

In my quiet I have grown absent and almost distant with some of my most favorite people. I miss my friends.

May I’ve decided is one of the busiest months of the year aside from December. Everything is wrapping up and filling up our schedule, not to mention school activities that I have been volunteering for — not sure what I was thinking. I feel I have definitely maxed myself out and am quite ready for the summer and a little down time. Funny I should say that, when I look at our summer schedule it is anything but slow. Headaches affect all ages, from young children to senior adults and symptoms vary from mild, nagging pain to debilitating cialis price http://greyandgrey.com/appellate-victories/ migraines. These are available in different sizes and colors as per the applications. best price for sildenafil It energizes and viagra free pill rejuvenates your reproductive organs. Learn more significant points about other generic ED pills like Zydena, Silagra, and Kamagra (which contain the same active ingredient Sildenafil or Tadalafil found in buy women viagra greyandgrey.com) cost significantly cheaper. It should be good though and full of summery stuff.

Adam continues to travel frequently. Work is keeping him as busy as ever, unfortunately its just not in town. We are holding up the fort without him home, though he is very much missed by all and treated like a rock star when he opens the door. I think he misses the comforts of home just as much, but we both put on a brave face, grateful that this need to travel is a blessing, an answer to our prayers, and keeping us afloat.

Yesterday we celebrated our seventeenth year of knowing one another — has it really been that long?

Squam is quickly approaching and all my time is going towards working out the kinks, making a power-point, and reviewing my class. I get a little anxious about the work I still feel is left and yet when I do it, and immerse myself, I simple can’t wait to teach it — and I can’t wait to see the lake in June.

I have been following along with my friend Maya Stein on her adventure across the country. She’s riding a bike with a typewriter in tow and meeting all kinds of people along the way seeking unique perspectives to fill up her pages. I admire her so much for seeing this dream to it’s fruition. Makes me contemplate my own. Doesn’t it seem a dream should come easy, natural because it’s what you always wanted, it’s what you’ve pushed for? This year I have come face to face with that reality and I’m telling you when your dream is finally at a reachable distance it can be overwhelming, scary even, and you wonder what sort of business you had dreaming such a thing. Even dreams, I’m learning take an exorbitant amount of blood, sweat, and tears, but when you are there, living it, it’s more rewarding than you can possibly imagine.

Remind me not to forget that — nothing comes easy, especially the things we want most.

xoxo